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25 May 2011 @ 09:46 am
Fic: Why Did You Go and Something You Miss  
Hello! *waves* I haven't posted anything here in forever! These exist in an unnamed verse, which is mostly inspired by songs, at some point in the future. Really specific, huh? Forgive my crappy writing, since I haven’t written anything in years. :)

Title: Why Did You Go
Author: irridescentsong
Pairing: RoyEd
Rating: Worksafe. Seriously, like G-rated angst.
Genre: Angst, hurt, songfic
Spoilers: post-brotherhood basically, though if it’s divergent, I can’t say from when or for sure yet.
Inspired by: Taylor Swift “Last Kiss”
Notes: yes, this is Ed’s POV. Forgive me if it comes out rough. Lyrics are italicized.


I still remember the look on your face, lit through the darkness at 1:58, the words that you whispered for just us to know, told me you loved me, so why did you go away?

This pain in my chest, I can’t understand it. It clouds my judgment, makes me scared, makes me uncertain, and I just want it to stop. I don’t want to wallow anymore, or feel this pain. It scares me.

I’ll go sit on the floor wearing your clothes. All that I know is that I don’t know how to be something you miss. I never thought we’d have a last kiss. Never imagined we’d end like this. Your name, forever the name on my lips.

It’s so hard to move on, Roy. I don’t know how to do it. Al understands. He lets me sit in bed, and just mourn. Mourn the loss of you in my life. I can’t do this alone. I just want to die.

Roy, why did you go away?

You said I was becoming dull, that my shine was gone. Were you just immune to it? Al never noticed a difference. Why was it you? Why did you have to worm your way into my heart and take hold?

It’s been hard, but I think I can move forward from here. I’ll just forget about all the years we spend in each other’s arms, just forget the words you whispered to me, just forget your face, your smirk, your everything. Roy, I’ll just forget you.

I’ll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep. I feel you forget me like I used to feel you breathe. I keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are. I hope the sun shines and it’s a beautiful day, and something reminds you. You wish you had stayed. You can plan for a change in the weather and time, but I never planned on you changing your mind.

Your name, forever the name on my lips.

Just like our last kiss.


Roy, I loved you. I still love you. I will forget you. I can’t live like this.

I love you. Why did you go?

Title: Something You Miss
Author: irridescentsong
Pairing: RoyEd
Rating: More G-rated angst
Genre: Angst, hurt, songfic
Spoilers: post-brotherhood basically, though if it’s divergent, I can’t say from when or for sure yet. Inspired by: Taylor Swift “Last Kiss” and rsndgrass
Notes: Roy’s POV, same situation, mirror fic to “Why Did You Go” Lyrics are italicized.



I do recall now the smell of the rain, fresh on the pavement, I ran off the plane, that July 9th. The beat of your heart, it jumps through your shirt, I can still feel your arms.

I couldn’t do it. I couldn’t keep my promise. My heart is breaking, and I can’t tell you how much it hurts. I couldn’t stand to see you soiled by me any longer. It scared me.

I’ll go sit on the floor wearing your clothes. All that I know is that I don’t know how to be something you miss. I never thought we’d have a last kiss. Never imagined we’d end like this. Your name, forever the name on my lips.

Ed, you don’t understand my reasons, and you can’t know how hard this is for me. I don’t know how I will live without you. Every day all I want it just to curl in bed and stay there. I just want to end it all. I don’t want to live without you. But it’s necessary. I don’t want to see you spoiled by me.

Ed, I don’t know how to be something you miss.

I tried to tell you. Tried to make you see it, see what I was doing to you. The shine in your eyes was gone, the brightness you carried in you disappeared. I was so afraid. I just wanted you to go back to the way I knew you before you became involved with me. I can’t let you go in my heart, but the least I can do is give you a chance to regain what you’ve lost because of me.

It’ll be hard on me, I know it. Everywhere there are reminders of you. Golden hair in my tub, my bed smells like you, an imprint of you in my couch. I’ll never forget all the years we spent in each other’s arms, won’t forget the words of love we whispered, won’t forget your face, your smile, your laugh. I won’t let myself forget you.

I’ll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep. I feel you forget me like I used to feel you breathe. I keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are. Hope it’s nice where you are. I hope the sun shines and it’s a beautiful day, and something reminds you.

Your name, forever the name on my lips.

Just like our last kiss.


Ed, I loved you from the moment you stepped into my arms. I will always love you. I won’t forget you. But I will live on.

I love you. I don’t know how to be something you miss

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rsndgrassrsndgrass on May 25th, 2011 02:03 pm (UTC)
oooooh i really like this.. would there be a chance of you doing this maybe from roy's pov?
Brittney Ryan: Winry is excited as all hellirridescentsong on May 25th, 2011 02:07 pm (UTC)
I hadn't thought about it yet. Kind of almost a mirror fic. It'd be interesting. I think I will! Thanks for the idea~
rsndgrassrsndgrass on May 25th, 2011 02:30 pm (UTC)
your welcome :)
Brittney Ryan: Winry is excited as all hellirridescentsong on May 25th, 2011 02:34 pm (UTC)
It's up. :)
rsndgrassrsndgrass on May 25th, 2011 03:06 pm (UTC)
ooooooh i like it :) your awesome! *hugs*