Bedlam Escapee (alchemistjunkie) wrote in fm_alchemist,
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A fanfic I submit

TITLE: Hey Dad
CHARACTERS: Ed-centric
RATING: G - PG at highest
SUMMARY: Ed takes a break from his travels to write his dad a letter.
A/N: Also this takes place place before Ed knows the truth about his father and all that good stuff. Maybe spoilers for Ed's father, but I am doubtful about that.



A/N: Bold-Song lyrics, Italics-the letter, bolditalics-randomness
Also I ahve not posted any of my writing here so don't kill me too badly.

Disclaimer: I don't own it.....cus if I did....there would be couplings like crazy and angst would flow freely. I also don't own the song Emotionless by Good Charlotte


Hey dad
I'm writing to you
Not to tell you, that I still hate you
Just to ask you how you feel
And how we fell apart
how this fell apart


'Hey dad,' his letter started for the twentieth time. He wasn't quite sure why he needed to write this letter, but it had been along time and perhaps it was time to finally sort things out. 'It's been twelve years since you left us here alone. I don't know how many times I have said that I hate you, but I don't hate you.'

Are you happy out there in this great wide world?
Do you think about your sons?
Do you miss your little girl? (ED: WHO YOU CALLIN SO SMALL THEY COULD PASS AS A LITTLE GIRL?!)
When you lay your head down how do you sleep at night?
Do you even wonder if we're all right?
We're alright
We're alright


'I've thought about you many times since you left. I wonder if you ever think about the sons and wife you left behind. We were all so young when you left, did you honestly think we would be okay. You left our mother to take care of two boys who were still new to this world.' he continued with determination. He wanted to be sure that he finished the letter this time. He had started too many times and left them undone. This time would be different.

It's been a long hard road without you by my side
Why weren't you there all the nights that we cried?
You broke my mother's heart,
You broke your children for life
It's not ok but we're alright


'Did you know that mom spent everyday waiting for you to return? She died of illness, but that is only what the doctor said. I believe she died of the broken heart you left her with. The broken heart that was so evident in her eyes, but Al and I were too young to understand at that time. I just knew that she was broken hearted and I hated you because I knew you left her waiting.' he dotted a wet spot off the paper. 'There must be a leak in the roof', he thought, because he surely was not crying. He wouldn't cry, no matter how hard this letter was to write.

I remember the days you were a hero in my eyes
But those were just a long lost memory of mine
I spent so many years learning how to survive
Now I'm writing just to let you know that I'm still alive


'You were always a hero in our eyes when you were here. You could perform alchemy and to two young boys that was the most amazing thing in the world. And once you left, we studied alchemy too. Maybe it was because we wanted a part of you to hold on to, or perhaps we wanted to see Mom smile again. It was tough on us, you being gone. We needed the memories in some ways to survive.'

The days I spent so cold, so hungry,
Were full of hate I was so angry,
The scars run deep inside this tattooed body
There's things I'll take to my grave, but I'm ok, I'm ok


'When mom died, our world fell apart. Brother and I were nothing without her. I made the mistake of saying we should bring her back. I made the mistake of dragging Al into the pits of hell with me. Sure we were selfish to want her back, but perhaps if you had been there we wouldn't have been so alone. We were cold and hungry and I knew we couldn't survive alone. And because of that choise, Al was trapped in a suit of armor and I have automail to replace what I lost and many scars that mark my body. The story of what happened that night shall stay with me til I die. Why weren't you there?' he stared at the paper and watched as a few more small drops landed and he fought to not let himself cry and to will his arm to stop shaking. He hadn't wanted to drag up all the old memories, but he couldn't stop now. If he stopped now he might never find the courage to continue.

It's been a long hard road without you by my side
Why weren't you there all the nights that we cried?
You broke my mother's heart,
you broke your children for life
It's not ok but we're alright
I remember the days you were a hero in my eyes
But those were just a long lost memory of mine
I spent so many years learning how to survive
Now I'm writing just to let you know that I'm still alive


'It's been hard since then dad. I joined the military in hopes of fixing my mistake. I became a dog of the military to try and return us to normal. But yet we still have survived. We've seen horrors that people our age should never see, and we have done more in our lives than many people will ever do.'

And sometimes I forgive,
Yeah and this time I'll admit
That I miss you, said I miss you


'And after all this, I should hate and never want to see you again. I miss you though, dad. I wish I would have gotten a chance to know you. I wish you would have given us a chance to know you. Why didn't you want to know us dad?' He wiped at his eyes unceremoniously and cursed the dust in the air for irritating his eyes, for surely he was not crying.

It's been a long hard road without you by my side
Why weren't you there all the nights that we cried?
You broke my mother's heart,
you broke your children for life
It's not ok but we're alright
I remember the days you were a hero in my eyes
But those were just a long lost memory of mine
I spent so many years learning how to survive
Now I'm writing just to let you know that I'm still alive


'Dad, I hope you know that we are going to be okay. It's a long and hard path we have before us, but we have made this far with just the two of us and we shall continue to make it this far. I'll always hate the bastard that left us on our own, but you are our father and I still wish I knew you.' he began to close the letter and on an after though reopened it to continue,

And sometimes I forgive,
yeah and this time I'll admit
That I miss you, said I miss you...


'I forgive you dad, I wanted you to know that I forgive you. maybe someday when you return you can tell us why you left, maybe someday we can understand.

Your son,
Edward Elric
Fullmetal Alchemist


hey dad

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