September 14th, 2006

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[Fanfic] NC-17 - Edward/Envy - "Desiderata."

Title: Desiderata.
Beta: DramaQueen, Dynast, jadedsilk and n0_leaf_clover.
Rating: NC-17, for philosophical disclosure, psychological discussion, sex, character death, suicide and general queerness.
Genre: Angst, PWP?
Pairings: Edward/Envy.
Feedback: Please! Feed my crazy!
Word Count: +/- 10 470. 
Quote: “It belongs to the imperfection of everything human that man can only attain his desire by passing through its opposite.” ~Soren Kierkegaard.
Summary: What would you do, when hope has abandoned you and nothing but broken memories remain? Would you embrace the Desire that leads to Nowhere? Would you walk down the road towards Death, with Insanity as your only companion?
Notes: My very first attempt at writing seriously in English. Because Zoe kept rambling on how terrible my Fanfiction is. Darker than my usual work, which is saying something. If I don’t go to hell for this, I’ll never will. This fanfic was inspired by many things, one of them being hieronymousb's awesome story, "Wasteland"; reading one of my favorite Poe stories, "The Black Cat"; listening to Apocalyptica's "Unforgiven" and generally, rereading my essay, "Desire, A Gateaway To Insanity", from which the quotes between scenes come from.

( In that moment, as the hands retreated again, leaving him shivering and helpless and strangely dissatisfied, as he heard the potent footfalls muted against the plush carpet, as the damnable clock let out a drowned scream, as the door closed and the lock clicked… then, then Envy knew he was doomed. )
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